No title means no coherency in this entry. Haha..

I'm just in a good mood and felt like writing an entry... about nothing and everything. I was supposed to meet up with a friend but she's sick =T So.. I was thinking about what to do and decided that I wanted to see the beach when it's raining. I have never seen the beach when it's raining so I got curious. So here I am at a cute little cafe right in front of seal beach where if i just look up I can see the shore.. Except, it's not really raining anymore.. Only sprinking a little here and there. But I'm still satisfied to have found a place like this. It's actually better that I'm here in this weather cuz I get to park for free right in front of the cafe!

I've been keeping myself busy with this and that and it's been quite good. But I always need a continual, constant reminder of the purpose behind everything that I do. Once I lose focus, I stop enjoying the things I do... God is so good because He always reminds me when I forget. When I start becoming tired, He reminds me why I started doing what I'm doing from the first place.

God has been teaching me about mercy. "Mercy triumphs over judgment." I didn't quite understand what that means, but slowly God has been showing me what it means. He's been gracious in helping me to realize that I am NOT a merciful person. I am quick to judge, point fingers at people rather than showing them mercy and love. I have been justifying my judgment as an act of love, helping them realize that they're in the wrong and they need to fix some things in their lives... only to find out that they all know and I'm just poking at their painful wounds hurting them even more..

What if God is not merciful?
HAHA.. Okay, it definitely is not a laughing matter, but that is just unthinkable... to even think that He wouldn't show mercy.. then there would be no me. I'll justly get what I deserve. "For judgment is without mercy to one who has shown no mercy." Can you imagine judgment without mercy? I'd rather not. If I don't even want to think about not receiving mercy, then why do I not give it? Yes, it is very unnatural, but I must.

"He has showed, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God." - Micah 6:8

Need a continual, constant reminder because I'm TOO forgetful. God, have mercy..