A Break =]

This summer has been the craziest EVER in my life. Definitely God is refining through the fire and for that, I'm ever so grateful even though... it is pretty hard and painful at times.

So I was supposed to study for GREs after I was done with my schedule for today... but I decided to give myself a "break" (I give myself wayy too many breaksss HAHA) and the weather was TOO nice to be wasted. So I decided to take a drive to the beach cuz I've been just DYING to be thereee!!

I just went! And everything was just PERFECT! Sigh.. it was right before sunset so I got to enjoy enough of the SUN and just the SUMMERYNESS of the beach <3 I just took a walk for an hour (well, not by choice but only cuz I parked really far and had to go the restroom near the pier -__-). Sometimes, it amazes me.. how much fun I can have by myself! talking to myself (and God) and watching people, especially BABIES and familiesssss <3 hahah they always make me smile. AND dogs too. and old couples. hehhe.. Anyhow, I'm at starbucks now.. should be studying but don't want to and it's just wayy too cold to be studying =P I just had to jot down some things that I wanted to do after I'm done with the whole grad school apps, ESP BEFORE THE SUMMER IS OVER! I cant believe summer is over. I rarely got to enjoy it =( BUT its not YET over! Sooo here's my list of things to do while summer is still here:

1. GO TO THE BEACH AND BE A BEACH BUM ALL DAY =P
2. Learn how to surf (always wanted to but i highly doubt i can LEARn before summers over)
3. Cliffdiving!!
4. Bike to the beach and just cruiseeeee by the shore =)
5. Watch 500 days of summer (ive seen wayy too many ppls status about this movie!)
6. Go on a drive to somewhere kinda far by myself (sd? sb? ionno..)
7. Go on a trip. by myself? with family? with friends?
8. Read children's books for FUN (& for work)
9. Go to starbucks, its a grind, library, borders FOR FUN (instead of "for studying")
10. Meet up catch up with friends.. play with peopleeeeeee (not by myself =P)

Some are definitely doable.. and some, I will definitely face some obstacles but whateverrrrrr~ I just want to enjoy LIFE, this LIFE HE'S given me. I really am learning to LOVE IT (and HIM of course) even though its hard. But when I go to these places, I am torn. Seeing these people makes me want to live a normal, "GOOD" life, or the life I've always dreamed of... have the "perfect family," having one boy and one girl, growing more and more in love as I age with my husband, love my career and make GOOD money, yet still know how to give to others. I am pretty sure such "perfect" families don't really exist, but I always thought even just being able to have those "perfect moments" would be enough. But definitely God has been changing me and that may be very far from the life that may be ahead of me and the strange thing is I'm okay. I'm okay to let go of that dream and to live the life that God would want me to live.. whereas before I would be like HECK NO... no wayy.. but yeah, all I can say is.. God is good and I want to live for Him.


God has definitely been using this song to speak to me:

"Fearfully and Wonderfully Made"
by Matt Redman

So fearfully and wonderfully made
How could they say there is no God?
Reminded every breath that I take
It's by Your Hand I have been formed
So what am I going to do with this life You gave me?
What could I do but live for Your priase?

You gave me this breath
And You gave me this strength
Everyday I'll live to obey You
With all of my heart,
With all of my soul
Let every breath I'm breathing display You God

There´s elegance in all you create
Your grand designs leave us amaze
The wonders of the way we´ve been made
Speak of Your power, tell of Your grace
So what am I going to do with this life You gave me?
What could I do but live for Your praise?

So what am I going to do with this life You gave me?
What am I going to do with this life?
What I am I going to do in these days You´ve ordained?
What am I going to do with this life?

Psalm 139

Okay, no studying today. It's TOO cold here. HAHA I'm going home. Goodbye!

Oh, I forgot to list this on the list:
11. SNOWBOARDING (i know it's not a summer thing.. but I should plan ahead!!)